Heartbroken?

I know  Ive talked about being lonely.. but today it hit me hard.

 I babysit a little 5 year old, and my son really enjoys the time he comes over. Today, for the first time when he left, my LO cried his eyes out. He was screaming, and throwing a fit. I only babysit the boy once a week. He really makes my son laugh, and he is learning how to share toys.It breaks my heart.

Part of me wants another baby so he isnt lonely, but another part of me is afraid to have a second one.

I decided to go spend2 weeks with my family who live 2 hours north. My nephew is the same age as the boy I babysit, and my son loves him to death. I have 2 nephews, and 1 neice that my son can play with up there.

I want to attend the parent and children get togethers, but its so hard with one vehicle. I seem to live too far from everyone as well. I guess Im just beginning to get homesick, and heartbroken that now that my son is old enough to play, he needs someone his age.

I do not expect feed back or anything, I just needed to get this off my mind.

Just in case - Poison Control

Poison Control

I suggest if you dont have it, Parents should put it in their cell phone just in case. Especially when your baby begins to walk….

So parents here is the Poison Control Number

1-800-222-1222

http://www.aapcc.org/dnn/default.aspx

Here comes the trouble!

I left the bedroom to go to the bathroom. Jathan was playing with his Mickey Mouse and chasing Daisy. 

As I am walking back into the room I notice how quiet he is. Parents know that when your baby is too quiet, something is up. I saw him with Gold Bond Foot Powder in his mouth. I dont know how much he ate bc the lid was closed, but he did get some from the top. I dont know how he got it, where he got it. Were at my moms and in her spare bedroom and I didnt see that thing laying around.

I called poison control immediately and they said hes fine, that hell have a small upset tummy and to give him lots of fluids through out the day so that it dilutes. I was soo afraid. 

Birthday Party

18 days til my baby boy turns 1!!!!

I cannot wait to cut his hair, its soooo long. I can tell it irritates him because he pulls at it, and scratches his face where it tickles him. Im tempted to get it cut this weekend.

We have all his gifts. I am going to buy him one more thing this weekend - converse shoes!! I got to put his kawasaki together as well. JcPennys has an awesome sale right now! For every 20 dollars you spend you get 10 off!!! So we went and bought him a lot of 18 month clothes to get him prepared for winter… they are birthday gifts as well! 

Busy week ahead of me. I got to finish getting the tiny apartment ready for my husbands family then go pick up his brother and aunt from the airport. I hope They arent too bored here while my huband is at work.